Harmonize your way through the skies
Perfectly beautiful without defect
Neglect your very intellect
Just protect your little sect.
Hold on, mold together, sit around
Floating feather
Your words, your eyes, never bluer
Than the skies.
Speak to me, teach me love.
Kiss my mouth, never shove.
Hold on, mold together, sit around
Floating feather
Forgive but never forget,
Wrongs, the best of my sin,
Begin, love me, begin, love me.
Plural or one, alone has begun,
Mistakes are great and fate will
Mate with chance. A lover’s dance.
A stealthy prance. Ready, aim, fire!
Support like under wire falls as
The walls collapse. Relapse.
Done this before, laid on this
Floor drowning in tears for
My fears come true. Do or die?
Never question why. Give in.
Begin. Let senses fade. Join your
Own tirade. Suddenly you call
To me, me the real, the way I
Feel changes and danger ends.
Friends come, friends they go,
But you are here.
So fears diminish, I’ll finish life,
With you.
More for me, my brain, no pain,
Sleepy and weepy. Doctor, please,
Read me. Then set me free, let
Me go, let me be. Every emotion
I feel, you peel apart, to my
Core. I abhor this place.
Everyone’s face reminds me that
I am now trapped and I’ll never
Adapt, for I don’t belong here.
It’s wrong to be here, I should
Be home with my sisters, how I
Miss them! I want to kiss them!
My soul wants the one that
Haunts my brain, my mate and
Fate has it that we’re apart,
But a new life starts once I
Stop the crying and start living,
Giving my all to become better,
Just stop being a mental bed wetter.
I feel like I should steal breath
I own for I was shown that death
Is close when I go and overdose.
Never learning, always yearning,
To be set free, mentally more
That physically, for I will see
In the end I will lend a new
Sort of being where I’ll be
Seeing a lot more of life.
Cringe, pop, swallow, pills same
Drill, hollow. Melt me, drown
Me, curse me, feed me. I
Feel so alone and yet so
Needy, I am warm and I am hot
Am I alarmed? Of course not.
October, 2008
Vacation in my mind,
Kind to the soul,
Mean to the liver.
Shiver, sweat, grasp, slip
Dip your toes in the cold
In the hot, let your tips
Swim round, sold to this
Sound so good, curse
And nurse the pain,
Everyone feels shame.
Done for? Money?
It’s stolen. And I’m happy.
Recollection, my protection,
From the future, I’m a
Loser to be lost in the
Past, but at last I
Seem free for a moment
To be, a simple word,
Though absurd, free.
But recollection,
Brings no affection,
For I sit alone, On my
Own, thinking, sinking
Into my chair, wearing
Nothing, no underwear,
Naked in my past
Endeavors that never
Ever leave me. I’ve
Failed and sailed
In the dark waters in my
Old life, sharks attacked
But I lacked a way
To survive, and now I
Sit in recollection, hoping
I make no mistakes,
Not again, no pretend.
Bend her, mold her
Make her slender
She must starve
Or it will end her.
She knows not.
If she stops then
Eats a lot, up it
Comes and she is
Thin, thin and bony,
Oh, if only she
Could see that
She is beauty.
Beauty clear and defined.
Totally she finds
Herself miserable
And terrible. Will
She ever stop and care?
She is thin, she is fat.
All it matters is that,
She is slender,
Though it ends her.
I couldn’t tell you who I am, even if I had a business card.
Death but alike, a sly
Cry for help, a giant whelp
Oh save me, save me
From the slavery to the
End, pretend I’m okay
Just say I am and I
Will damn myself to life
For death and all its glory
Will have no story over me.
